branching outwards?
It's been awhile once again– but I haven't forgotten, I still love this tiny corner of the internet. When I look back at my old entries I can't help but notice that's what I talk about a lot. I don't feel like I get to talk about other things. Perhaps it's because I'm afraid to.
But first I believe an update is due.
For Christmas I received a family members old iPhone 12 Pro Max to replace my old iPhone XS Max. The unfortunate part of this was that I lost the app that connected to the Gemini protocol so my Gemini plant has sadly wilted away. I was particularly fond of it but there isn't much I can do since with the app also went the certificate. Hopefully the members of the Gemini plant website will keep them alive for as long as possible, but if it's too late, I understand and it had some good generations.
Even so there is a small sadness to it. All good things must come to an end sometime but I wish I could predict when it would happen. However I don't feel like I'd have time to prepare even if I knew... but thats life.
There has just been a cloud of dread that has swallowed me lately. There is simply too much going on to recount it all at once. I truly wish I could block out some things so my mind did not have to perceive them. Will there ever come a time the haze clears and the sadness will dry up? Surely there has to be... the flowers emerge from their slumber in spring and hopefully so will I. Even so there are things that make a life worth living for... even if they are small.
I hope that small flicker of hope will rekindle into a blazing fire once again. Soon...